Confusion

To be confused is not a foreign concept to me. I think that most of young adult life I've been confused about one thing or another. Whether it be what college to attend, what major to pick, what career to look into, which boy to date and which boy not to date, whether to break up or try harder, move back to Belgium or stay here, ... and the list goes on and on and on.... Come to think of it I'm probably the worst decision maker ever!

So why might this be? Well I thought about it for a while and I came to realize that maybe it's due to the fact that I am some what of a perfectionist; I like to plan things and like for them to go as planned. In addition, I hate failures and I don't like to start over.. I cannot stand to feel like I've wasted my time because I went down the wrong path..

But with all that said, I'm starting to wonder if I haven't gotten so used to being confuse that I actually like to be in that state of mind. It sounds crazy (I mean who wants to be confused??), but think about it for a minute... Being confused gives you leeway.. it allows you to do or not do something and then blame on the fact that you are/were confused. Confusion allows you to shy away from decisions; you can say, "well I won't make any decisions until I'm sure of the right decision to make". But this could be a recipe for disaster! Because it could weeks, months, years, if ever to come come with the "right decision"..

So I can't help but wonder if people are ever sure what the right choice is before they make a decision... Maybe the challenge in life is not the make the right decision, but to have enough trust or faith in your judgement to simply make a decision and hope that it works out for the best.