I'll hold your hand...

Sounds like such a simple phrase.. Something we've all heard and probably have all said to someone at some point.But let me tell you that this phrase is a loaded one!


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I don't mean to get all deep or emotional about it because in some cases this phrase can be taken very literally. For example, when a mother tells her child to hold her hand as they are about to cross the street.

But lets be real when we say or hear it from someone it usually has a much deeper meaning... And that's when the trouble start, when we say things that have the potential to have a stronger meaning without really thinking about... And we've all done myself included sometimes without even noticing it..

But when these few words are said in the right context to the right person.. and when it actually happens.. it creates magical moments.. happy memories to hold on to forever!

I must say though that I am not just referring to romantic situations, far from that actually... In my experience it was the last true memory I had; a faint yet full of hope hand squeeze.. And no it was not from a significant other.

As you see this phrase "I'll hold your hand" as simple and commonly used as it is can hold so much meaning. So my advice.. don't say it if you don't mean.. But when it's said to you, don't shy away from it instead embrace and enjoy the moment!:)

Creating a New path...

As I promised here is my first picture! I figured that it would a good idea to relate my first picture to the theme of this blog; A Fresh Beginning . When I think of a fresh beginning i think of new start. I think of starting over with a new and better beginning.

As much as I don't really like change I have to admit that new beginnings are always exciting!! it's a time to change your outlook on a situation or even life as a whole. So what better way to start something new by creating a new path..

The picture above is a picture of an outside stairway that I took last weekend at Blue Mountain Retreat Center. I actually took it for my photography class assignment which was titled the architecture and designs of pictures. For the assignment I had to take pictures of different designs. This photo would be qualified as symmetry because of the shape of the stairway, and repetition because of the repetition of each stair. Of course I also did some photoshop work on the picture since the class focuses on black and white art.

So far this pictures is one of my favorite photos as it can symbolize different things depending on how you look at it. For me it is a representation of my path to a fresh beginning :)

Double Purpose!

So I realized today that I have only been using my blog as diary or a thought organizer, forgetting that this blog initially had two purposes; to be used as a diary and as a canvas...

Well it's time to bring out my paint brushes and show you what I have been working on! lol. Of course I can't just blur it all out at once so I'm going to ask you to be a bit more patient as I put some order to my photographs and start posting them. But stay tuned as it should not be too long before I start posting some beautiful photos!!

Confusion

To be confused is not a foreign concept to me. I think that most of young adult life I've been confused about one thing or another. Whether it be what college to attend, what major to pick, what career to look into, which boy to date and which boy not to date, whether to break up or try harder, move back to Belgium or stay here, ... and the list goes on and on and on.... Come to think of it I'm probably the worst decision maker ever!

So why might this be? Well I thought about it for a while and I came to realize that maybe it's due to the fact that I am some what of a perfectionist; I like to plan things and like for them to go as planned. In addition, I hate failures and I don't like to start over.. I cannot stand to feel like I've wasted my time because I went down the wrong path..

But with all that said, I'm starting to wonder if I haven't gotten so used to being confuse that I actually like to be in that state of mind. It sounds crazy (I mean who wants to be confused??), but think about it for a minute... Being confused gives you leeway.. it allows you to do or not do something and then blame on the fact that you are/were confused. Confusion allows you to shy away from decisions; you can say, "well I won't make any decisions until I'm sure of the right decision to make". But this could be a recipe for disaster! Because it could weeks, months, years, if ever to come come with the "right decision"..

So I can't help but wonder if people are ever sure what the right choice is before they make a decision... Maybe the challenge in life is not the make the right decision, but to have enough trust or faith in your judgement to simply make a decision and hope that it works out for the best.

Inspiration

So you're probably wondering where I have been... that is if anyone even reads this! lol But I'm going to choose to believe that someone might be reading :)

Well I have been away, not physically but mentally. Don't get me wrong; I've had thoughts that I wanted to share with you or the world.. And I've even started a few different posts, but for some reason I never got around to finishing them.. I would get inspired to begin, but it just wasn't enough inspiration to get me to finish.. And that's how a lot of things are in my life. I get inspired but just not quite enough to get there (wherever there is..)

Well that's going to change!! I mean it's not like I'm an under achiever or anything like that, au contraire I get things done and I usually get them done well, but usually only when I'm under pressure. When I know that I'm going to get graded or I know that it will negatively affect the people around if I don't get it done. Is that enough tho? Can I get by in life by only accomplishing the things that "have" to get done? Well I don't think that is very healthy, I mean I should be able to get things some things done just because I want to.. or because I feel like it.. or because there good for me.. Yes that would be a healthier approach to life, better yet it will be a happier approach to life :-)

By the way in case you're wondering where I got the inspiration to start and finish this post... Well I took pictures this morning :) I'm not totally proud of myself because I have to admit that I "had" to take the pictures for my photography class, but it did help to get me thinking about this whole issue.. They were really nice pictures and I really enjoyed taking them. So hopefully that will be enough to motivate me in the future!!

Direction

Have you ever felt like you've walked so far away that you don't even know where to turn to find your way back? That's how I have been feeling lately...

I always grew up with some sort of direction, whether it be from my parents, myself or even from my religious organization. I am the type of person who needs to know where I'm going before I start walking and I need to plan my moves every step of the way. But in the last year I feel like I've lost all sense of direction.. One event after the other just got me further and further away from my goal so far away that I don't even remember what the goal was in the first place...

I have divided my life in different sections; family, friends/social, education/career, God/spirituality and I usually set goals for each category. But lately I don't think that I have reached many of the goals i've set. And in some of the categories I think that I'v actually done the opposite of my goal... So what to do now? Well the obvious would be to get my life back on track right? Well easier said than done. I have no idea how or where to start, I feel overwhelm and I think that lately my reaction has been to just sit back and watch my life go by hoping that it would magically fix itself, again something that I would have never done in the past.. But it's time to snap out of it. I have to regain control. And I think I should start with the spiritual aspect of my life, I mean in Him all things are possible! so I think that would be a good start. I'll keep you posted on my success..

New Beginning

January 1, 2010; a new year has begun.. It's a time of reflection and new beginnings. It's a time to look back on the good and the bad of 2009 (and they were quite a few...) but most importantly it's a time to look forward to the new adventures that 2010 will bring.

2009 was suppose to be my year, unfortunately I had some setbacks...but not to worry I've claimed 2010 as my year! 2010 here I come!