Inspiration

So you're probably wondering where I have been... that is if anyone even reads this! lol But I'm going to choose to believe that someone might be reading :)

Well I have been away, not physically but mentally. Don't get me wrong; I've had thoughts that I wanted to share with you or the world.. And I've even started a few different posts, but for some reason I never got around to finishing them.. I would get inspired to begin, but it just wasn't enough inspiration to get me to finish.. And that's how a lot of things are in my life. I get inspired but just not quite enough to get there (wherever there is..)

Well that's going to change!! I mean it's not like I'm an under achiever or anything like that, au contraire I get things done and I usually get them done well, but usually only when I'm under pressure. When I know that I'm going to get graded or I know that it will negatively affect the people around if I don't get it done. Is that enough tho? Can I get by in life by only accomplishing the things that "have" to get done? Well I don't think that is very healthy, I mean I should be able to get things some things done just because I want to.. or because I feel like it.. or because there good for me.. Yes that would be a healthier approach to life, better yet it will be a happier approach to life :-)

By the way in case you're wondering where I got the inspiration to start and finish this post... Well I took pictures this morning :) I'm not totally proud of myself because I have to admit that I "had" to take the pictures for my photography class, but it did help to get me thinking about this whole issue.. They were really nice pictures and I really enjoyed taking them. So hopefully that will be enough to motivate me in the future!!

Direction

Have you ever felt like you've walked so far away that you don't even know where to turn to find your way back? That's how I have been feeling lately...

I always grew up with some sort of direction, whether it be from my parents, myself or even from my religious organization. I am the type of person who needs to know where I'm going before I start walking and I need to plan my moves every step of the way. But in the last year I feel like I've lost all sense of direction.. One event after the other just got me further and further away from my goal so far away that I don't even remember what the goal was in the first place...

I have divided my life in different sections; family, friends/social, education/career, God/spirituality and I usually set goals for each category. But lately I don't think that I have reached many of the goals i've set. And in some of the categories I think that I'v actually done the opposite of my goal... So what to do now? Well the obvious would be to get my life back on track right? Well easier said than done. I have no idea how or where to start, I feel overwhelm and I think that lately my reaction has been to just sit back and watch my life go by hoping that it would magically fix itself, again something that I would have never done in the past.. But it's time to snap out of it. I have to regain control. And I think I should start with the spiritual aspect of my life, I mean in Him all things are possible! so I think that would be a good start. I'll keep you posted on my success..

New Beginning

January 1, 2010; a new year has begun.. It's a time of reflection and new beginnings. It's a time to look back on the good and the bad of 2009 (and they were quite a few...) but most importantly it's a time to look forward to the new adventures that 2010 will bring.

2009 was suppose to be my year, unfortunately I had some setbacks...but not to worry I've claimed 2010 as my year! 2010 here I come!